iThink...thereFore, iAm

I’m tempted to think what’s the point of it, when all it seems to do is make you left out, and allow other people to take advantage of you while they enjoy themselves grabbing whatever it is they want. When it leaves you hurt, raw and bearing it in silence because you’re a gentleman and therefore speak no ill of another.

I’m tempted to think what’s the point of it, when people show no care or sensitivity to the condition they’ve put you in, and turn around and mock you for being weak, knowing full well that they are the ones who put you there in the first place. And it’s not that i want to announce it to the world or dig up things in my mind that have happened - they often strike me unaware, and only those who conceal their emotions well are able to act normal..and even then it’s just an act.

(On a sidenote, i think it’s really very easy to act all strong and happy when you’re the one to benefit from it and you refuse to face what you need to deal with. It’s a different story when you feel like somone has backstabbed you and turned all tables on you, and still flies around claiming innocence and enjoying what he “reaped”.)

I’m tempted to heck it all and say it’s not worth it, because after 27 years it hasn’t been, and people who do whatever it takes to get their way seem to get it, whether right or wrong.

So tell me, prove it to me, someone - before i change my mind - is it worth it?